stressed...

this week is so tiring and stressful... especially with PW... which is driving me CRAZY!!!
besides, i still had to wake up @ 430am everyday to go school for touch rug fitness training... this is madness la... luckily is only for this week... and now my legs are aching like SHIT!!!
as for PW... it's really driving me crazy... especially today... we went to SASS to interview a few teachers... it was a really fufilling trip as we had alot of ideas after the interviews... however, it oso led to more confusion and disagreements among my grp... and our brains were all almost saturated already... especially me... so i did not even know what i was talking abt... but anw i dun care liaoz... cos i was super pissed with SOMEBODY!!! really... cannot stand that person!!!
and beatrice started talking abt some religious and philosophical stuffs to me. Beatrice, if u really wan to know why i find no purpose in living... read this: it's not that i have bad parents... just that i find myself very useless in their eyes... and since even my closest kin dun value my presence... what's the pt of living?!! since they dun value me... y bring me to this world in the first place?!! if not for my sis... who is really the only one who values me... i will not be here today... i chose to live on bcos i love my sister and would not want her to be alone... i definitely would not want to see her crying over my departure and i have the responsibility of taking care of her... that's why im here today...
i know this post is abit emo today but cos beatrice mentioned it today so it brought alot of emotions to my mind... that's y i was abit agitated and stressed up just now... so sorry if i offended anyone with my words, especially beatrice.. cos i din even noe what i was talking... so sorry...
gosh!! this is my most emo post ever!!!