depressed

I feel so unappreciated. I feel so redundant. I ****ing HATE this family. no matter what I do or how much I try to be a good daughter... they'll nv see. I guess only my sis is worthy of being their good daughter whom they can be proud of. I dun blame my sis... I just blame myself for having such parents. I always get the blame for bad things. but when good things happen, it's never my credit. maybe my sis is all they need. maybe I shd never have came to this world. maybe I shd just get knocked down by a car once I step out of this hse. maybe... I shd just die. At least when im dead, I will be remembered. unlike now, im just a needless person. I really dunno how much longer I can hold on.